Memories
Memories. Pain. Regret.
Rick & Me.
Z: "Shh. Listen. That's the sound of my heart breaking."
He's jealous of Zack. I should've known. He's afraid I'd get hurt. I don't blame him. I can understand how he feels. But I moved on only because I believed I was a burden to him. I don't wanna make him feel bad just because I'm regretting the huge mistake I made about two months ago. But do I still have feelings for him? Do I feel happy or sad that he's missing me? I want him to move on, be happy, even if it's without me. He likes her, doesn't he?
But Zack. He's such a sweetheart, but he was a huge player. True, it was two years ago, but who knows? He doesn't look like the type, but...looks can be really deceiving, I suppose. But I can remember his touch, his smile, his face - part of me believes he really, truly likes me. Yet another part - perhaps logic - interferes, reminding me that a leopard doesn't change its spots. Does he really like me for who I am, even though we haven't even known each other for a week? Or am I just an easy convenience for him?
I wish logic wasn't overruled by emotions. Whenever I think of those two guys, I really don't know whether to be happy or sad. I really don't. I need remedies. Something to help me forget. I need to rule out my thoughts and put aside my emotions for now.
Updated by Theodora on 11:42 AM
