Can't stop listening...

Anyway.

I'm beginning not to feel much anymore. Scared about a lot of things.

Had a nightmare a few nights ago, I dreamt I got 32 points for my O's, and wept enough tears to flood Singapore. Woke up with a palpitating heart.

I got freaking 18 upon 30 for my English compo. Which is like my all-time-low grade. I quote Mrs Low: "Theresa, your tenses are wrong."

I looked at the paper. I'd written the topic Sorrow, in a story in present tense. Far as I'm concerned, there isn't anything wrong with it. I told her, "But I wrote it in present tense."

She took the paper, looked at it, looked at me again, and said, "Don't write in present tense. It's not allowed."

WTF???

Moving on.

Friends - I know I'm not the friendliest of persons, but I never actually realized how cold I was until someone pointed it out to me - I never wave, say Hi first, or make much eye contact. And apparently, whenever I smile, my eyes remain exactly the same way as they are when I have a neutral expression. In other words - an insincere smile.

Sorry, but I never asked to be so completely transparent. And no, I'm not being snappy. It's the truth. The only reason I don't initiate salutations is because I'm afraid of the other party not reciprocating, that's all. I have nothing against you personally, I swear.

Next.

Family - I'm distancing ever so slightly from them. It's a total love-hate bond. I'll be singing their praises when they spoil me and mentally unleashing all the profanities I've ever heard of on their person if they don't. Why am I such a bitch. And no, that is not a question.

Last.

You. (You - heck, everyone else - knows who you are.) Is it me, or is there a faint lull in our relationship nowadays? There isn't much to say anymore to each other. You're busy with your flying, I'm busy with my schoolwork. Neither of us is at fault. But I do feel like we're not communicating so well nowadays. Don't misinterpret this. I love you. You know I do. Maybe I miss you so much ever since Genting, that I'm overthinking on all this shit. All I can say is, I can't wait to see you again. Just five more months...

Time to return to the safe, relaxing haven of music. Earphones: in.