Tuesday, January 12, 2010
O Level results were released yesterday. For those who're happy with their results, congratulations. For those who aren't...well, sorry, but you just have to find other options. =/

We clustered at the far end of the right corridor overlooking the hall, and watched as the distinctions were announced. Top scorer: 9 distinctions.

Holy bejesus.

Mrs Low burst into tears afterwards when she told us about last year's 5A batch's English results. So many of them got E8. Freaking E8. You can have a record as immaculate and as impressive as a single digit score, but getting below D7 for English? Wave bye-bye to JC/Poly.

Then she turned to me, looked at me and said, "Theresa, I'm going to be frank here. Out of all of you, you're the only one who can pass."

I stared back dumbly. "Pass? I don't want a pass!"

She sighed.

I said confidently (enough), "I don't care. This time next year, you're gonna be seeing my name on that distinction list. I don't care."

Oh God, what have I gotten myself into???

Me and a few of the other classmates have come up with a backup plan - if we find we ain't coping so good with the O's by March, in April we're gonna head out to ITE for the second intake.

I put this plan to my parents. Three guesses as to what they said?

...

"No Theresa, you stay in your school and you do O levels. We don't want you to go ITE."

Backup plan FAILED.

To make matters worse, I'm trying desperately to "wake up", as in, achieve that die-hard-study mode. I DO study, but not fullheartedly - my mind's not on my work sometimes.

How do I wake up?!

Arghxfjgkojasdlkf.

I sure as hell don't wanna be shedding tears of disappointment in January 2011.

Major sigh.

To those who're in the same dilemma as me, I wish you all the best.

To those who aren't, lucky you.

Guess it's back to the books, Theo...

Wish me luck.