Friday, May 11, 2007
When I see your smile
Tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul

Turns out my sister failed three of her tests. She had to tell my parents and ended up crying and blubbering so miserably and wailing how she wished she could die that I felt sympathetic for her. As I watched her, I thought,

Would that be me next week, when I get back my results?

I don't wanna stay back in boring Singapore. I wanna go to Malaysia and KL and Genting and buy loads of shit and have some fun before grinding my ass back in my studies when I return from Malaysia from a six-day holiday.

Mentally, I made out this list:

English PASS
Math FAIL
Chinese UNDECIDED
Science UNDECIDED
Home Economics PASS
Literature PASS
History PASS

UNDECIDED means that I'm unsure of whether or not I'll pass OR fail.

Four guarantees of passes. Three unknowns. Shit. Not good.

Damn, looks like I WILL stay back in Singapore after all.

Fuck it.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven